Long Time...

Well, its been a long time since I have felt the need to put finger to key, as it were. Life has been going very well of late. I am seeing a wonderful man and am starting to slide into that comfortable rythm of a new relationship. Of course, this is made easier by the fact that he is half way across the world and stationed in Afghanistan. But he will be returning home in a few months.

But I am left to move alone. Thankfully I have completed nursing school, though at times I have doubted myself more then I like to admit. But having him there, even if by over the phone, telling me that I could do that he was proud and believed in me. Well, that was just the push I needed to get through that last semester filled with stress and apathy.

I consider myself very, very fortunate. Not just to have met him, but also because I have so many blessings. Its funny how often we forget just how blessed we are. I have been given so much in this life. But then I forget that, and I start looking with envy at the lives of others. And I am ashamed of myself when I realize it. Ashamed and saddened. So, I have begun to pray about my blessings. Counting them every night- I am well, my family is healthy, my 86 year old grandmother is recovering well from a severe shoulder injury and has even started to drive again, I am in love and I am loved, my dogs are all healthy, I have a home, I have a job, my brother is returning from Afghanistan soon and he and his family are all healthy, my car has yet to break down, my knee is healing well from dislocating it playing tennis, my friend Jenny is getting married to the love of her life and my best friends have just bought a new house.

So many blessings. So many things that are so wonderful. And yet I can become blind to them. We weren't placed on this earth to desire that which we do not or cannot have, but to celebrate the life that we are given. To want and love what we do have.

Perhaps that is the best that we can wish for eachother- to pray that we all want and love what we do have in our lives.